I kept a gratitude journal for 6 months & this is what happened…

Preamble

Hark is this the sound of clickbait? No, it’s just how titles work in 2019…

This January, I had surgery and I was diagnosed with endometriosis. I knew at the time that it would be a challenge for me to recover emotionally. (I can be very pessimistic). So in order to survive, I promised to write down 3 things I was grateful for every day to remind myself of my privilege.

Of course, I wrote down the obvious ones, My parents. My brother. My Boo. My best friend. I put down being able to afford health care and small luxuries. Having food, water, shelter and love. Music, art, and books. My hearing, my sight and my breath.

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Grateful – For my squishes!

What I’ve included here are the less obvious ones, the more obscure. The gratitudes that made me realise how fortunate I am, that in the history of the universe I live at the same time as the people and items on this list.  Or that I exist at all. I’ve come a long way since teenage me wanted to stop existing entirely.

Gratitudes

  •  The Jenna & Julien podcast.
  • Discovering the Zero Waste lifestyle.
  • My PhD Scholarship.
  • Audible.
  • The What Cast.
  • My pink heat pack.
  • Being a Ravenclaw.
  • Harmony Nice.
  • Buffy Summers.
  • Birds singing outside my window in the morning.
  • Forgiveness.
  • Cool drinking water.
  • Madeleine Olivia.
  • Baby Green Squish.
  • Red wine.
  • Van Gogh.
  • Lagunitas Beer.
  • My tattoos.
  • Being able to read.
  • Dank Memes.
  • Mr Marbles (Jenna’s dog).
  • Sunny Hostin on the view.
  • Kermit the frog memes.
  • The picture of mam when she was young I keep on my desk.
  • Lemons in sparkling water.
  • The What Cast guys and their sense of humour.
  • My lucky blue dress.
  • Session IPA.
  • The Empire Strikes Back.
  • Creativity.
  • Ellen my succulent.
  • My writer friends on Twitter.
  • D’Vine’s Tempranillo.
  • Dried fried noodles.
  • The big tree at Whitehall.
  • Pickles on Pizza. (Cheers Nicole!).
  • My Neat Dude beanie in golden.
  • Boiled eggs.
  • My GHDs.
  • Alex the Honking Bird.
  • My brother’s ability to find god awful films to watch. i.e The Room.
  • The Debbie Machine.
  • Black matt lipstick.
  • Tibetian bowl music.
  • Dr Phil’s analysis podcast.
  • Having self-reflection and recognising bad habits.
  • Oprah’s book, “The Path Made Clear.
  • Getting to meet my mentor before he died.
  • Getting to vote.
  • My new supervisor Tara.
  • Napping!
  • Dr Bob Brier, Egyptologist and all-round nerd King.
  • Tattoo Heroes Dublin.
  • Lord Snugglebutt.
  • Reading in the orange armchair.
  • Lucy & Yak dungarees.
  • Having leftovers to eat.
  • Dido’s album, “Still On My Mind.
  • Nicole’s sense of humour.
  • Bananas.
  • My What Cast T-Shirt.
  • Uniball pens.
  • Playing board games.
  • Knowing my worth.
  • Dying my hair with Mama.
  • Knowledge, wisdom and silence.

Results

Honestly? Wonderful. You do not realise how much you take for granted until you start keeping count. Rather than feeling dismay at getting up at 5.30 (I’m not a morning person), I now think the following. Wow, I am employed in my dream job, something I wouldn’t have thought possible even 5 years ago.

When I’m feeling tired and grumpy, I think about how fortunate I am that when I do get to bed, it will be warm and comfortable.

Finally? While a lot on this list are things, they are simple; but genuinely? “The best things in life, aren’t things.” – Anthony J. D’Angelo

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Grateful – The memory of the Foo Fighter’s concert with Le’Boo

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Things I accomplished that I never thought I would…

Preamble

Welcome my Moonlings to a positive post in which I make you feel better, while also humbly (nose snort) boasting about my accomplishments.

This is something I’ve been thinking about for a while (says every blogger ever). Since January I’ve been writing down 3 things a day that I’m grateful for. Whether that’s having a beer or a lie in. Being grateful for the little moments helped me realise that actually, they are big moments.

My mindset is now that I have the privilege of having a lie-in, the money to afford a beer and the means to be in a PhD programme. I don’t want to take my life for granted and living in the moment is all we have.

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Accomplishments

It would appear that this mindset has paid off because I realised that even though I’ve accomplished many things off my bucket list, I never truly celebrated them. As usual my ambition and inferiority complex meant I just needed to move onto the next big thing.

We spend so much of our time looking to the future, the next big life stage, but we rarely take the time to appreciate how far we’ve come. So today I want to discuss some of the bigger ones I’ve ticked off my list and actually pat myself on the back for once!

The Accomplishments

1. Got my masters.

Although I had to do it over two years instead of one, I still managed to get a masters in anthropology and development. This was while working in shift work, full-time, in order to pay for it.

Thinking Moon
Thinking Moon

I even won an award for my research and 250euro (see below). I was the only masters student in the PhD Colloquium in which I came second. I got a first(1.1) in my thesis that I wrote in the summer while working full-time in a call centre. That job drained me so much, I often got home at 6 and had to go to bed at 8pm because I was so mentally exhausted.

Accomplishments
Accomplishments

2. Got a funded PhD

It was September 2014 and I had just started the second year of my classes for my masters in anthropology and development. A PhD student came to sit in the class (it was a small class so you couldn’t miss her). She spoke so eloquently and confidently. Afterwards, we got to chatting and internally I was thinking, “I will never be this accomplished for someone to take me on for a PhD.”

Cut to 2016 I get a mysterious phone call from a man who became my mentor, friend and role model. “I see you started to fill out an application and you haven’t finished it…” (story of my life) “…I’m really impressed with your portfolio and I would like to offer you a PhD scholarship within the Business Management school.

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Me going to a gala dinner at Nicholas’s Palace in St Petersburg after the conference.

I am now three years in with one left to go. I have two publications, I presented at a conference in St. Petersburg, and I’m about to embark on my data collection.

3. Got response from publishers.

This may seem silly but I got actual responses from legitimate publishers who liked my 20,000 word draft of my novel. I didn’t want to waste my time finishing it if it wouldn’t have a home at the end. Though it was rejected by some publishers, they responded to it kindly and professionally.

Even though I had to postpone it until after my PhD, I know within my heart that my book will be published someday. If I could tell teenage Jaycee that, she would cry with joy.

See below my vision board I made below Christmas 2018 for the new year and beyond. I’m well on my way to accomplishing what I wanted.

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Vision Board

4. Met someone who loves me for ME.

Look at this handsome divil. Honestly, I had tumultuously loves before Le’Boo and that’s what I thought a relationship was. Then I met him and I realised that love can be easy, and you can be loved for every single weird part of you.

Thinking Moon
Thinking Moon

5. Started a Youtube channel.

Yes, I have a YouTube channel have you heard? I’ve been watching YouTubers for years now, and I always wanted my own channel but never have the guts.

Cut to last year I was sick of being afraid and I started uploading. I only have 94 subscribers over there, but it’s growing strong. If you want to do something. Do it. There is no better time than now.

It’s better to start late than never even trying.

6. Grew my twitter following to 4500.

The Writing Community on twitter is the best thing I discovered on the internet since memes. Everyone is so supportive. We follow each other, share each other’s accomplishments and commiserate each other’s failures.

If you’re on Twitter and you want to join use the hashtag WritingCommunity and join in the conversation. Follow me over there and once you have writer / author in your bio I’ll follow you back.

7. Starting a successful blog.

What makes a successful blog? It’s simple. Whether you have 1 follower, or you’re lucky like me to have over 600 wonderful followers, write to them. Someone will comment to say they enjoyed reading or felt the same at one stage. I’ve gotten some gorgeous comments here on my blog and made some crazy friends.

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Jaycee, the face of Thinking Moon

8. Finally calling myself a writer.

Yes even though I’ve been writing since I was a small child, I never considered myself a writer. Then I realised. Do you write Jaycee? The answer was yes, I write every day. What is the definition of a writer?

Thinking Moon
Thinking Moon

 

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Don’t put off until tomorrow what you can do today.” – Benjamin Franklin

Gratitude

Today, education is withheld from millions of children. Today, millions flee from their homeland, labelled refugees, making them seem less than human. Today, those who are divergent face oppression, rejection, and suffering.

 

Today, parents mourn their dead children, killed by tyrannical systems. Today, people get news that change their lives irrecoverably for the worst. Today, women struggle for rights we take for granted on a daily basis.

 

Today, our fellow human beings are forced from their homes as a result of natural disasters and war. Today, people never make it back to their families, never heard from again. Today, corrupt regimes prevent their citizens from accessing basic democratic rights, such as voting.

 

Today, I am grateful, regardless of the outcome of this referendum. Today, I vote and my vote is counted. A gift millions of humans worldwide still fight for. Today, I am filled with joy and humility, as I am part of history.

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