The mess that 2020 has been, let’s be real…

Preamble

My dear Moonlings, I am exhausted. Normally this time of year there is excitement in the air. It’s a holiday season for many, with the years end looming. We normally have the feeling of renewal, and we want to set our goals for the new year.

This time last year I was preparing to shave my head, buying Christmas presents and excited for 2020, the final year of a decade. I was planning on finishing my Ph.D. by starting my data collection in February. Which is laughable now. I was going to get a new job, hopefully in the field I wanted to work in. Finally I was going to get back to writing my novel.

Vogue Parody: 73 Questions
Vogue Parody: 73 Questions

At the start of 2020 I wrote a number of blog posts, made some YouTube videos and then I disappeared. Not only as a result of the pandemic, but in hopes that if I did I could still get my Ph.D. finished. I have finally come to terms with being a year overdue for my Ph.D. It took me longer to collect data, which was in fairness was mainly a result of the lockdown.

I actually realised this week that without writing on Thinking Moon for all of you, my mental health was suffering. I am one of those people that needs a creative outlet. The thoughts, feelings and opinions in my head need to be expelled. Otherwise they fester, and then I have a head full of unhealthy ponderings.

Revisiting My 2020

In January 2020, I wrote about my goals for the year. I thought it would be fun to revisit the goals, and see how I did, despite how tough this year has been on all of us. This is for fun, I’m not being hard on myself. Too much has happened this year to be critical of ourselves for not

  1. Sustainability goals 2020! I still have them, don’t worry! I will do a review of the latter half of 2019 too.

So that post is here and I am telling you now it was a disaster. I still think sustainably and I never just make a purchase without thinking ethically. After March though, I completely forgot about the whole thing. So there was not point making a half or full year update. I’ve been eating meat all the time. Did ok with the books, and got the safety razor. I stopped by Jeffree Star Cosmetics because I finally realised what a horrible person he is. My recycling has been better. I didn’t get to plant a tree because we’re not allowed outside.

I will not be hard on myself for missing out on a lot of these goals. We have all had a horrific year. I will be posting a video at the end of the year, not for goals for the coming year, but what I am grateful for this year. I urge you all to do the same.

2. What I will count as wins for 2020? There will also be a list of my wins / what I was grateful for in 2019.

I will actually be posting a YouTube video about this. In the meantime here is my most recent video. I have gotten back to posting there too. Just simple, low key video’s to get the ideas out of my head. This is something I think has affected my mental health, because I wasn’t being creative.

3. I have a list of experience I want to try in 2020. These are a bit scary but worth it. Starting with number 1: SHAVING MY HEAD!

I am laughing reading this. I could barely WORK this year no mind get other experiences. I have nothing else to say other than I learned how to make scones, grew my hair and missed my family.

4. List of books I want to read this year. I have 60 on my good reads but there are 12 (1 for each month) that I want to read.

I didn’t make it to 60 or read all the books on my list of 12 but I did read 33 so far. Might get a couple of more in before the end of the year. Not stressing about it though. I read 6 out of 12 off my list, and they were all enjoyable. I’ll be making a YouTube video about this too. Reading was an escape for me when I had the energy to do so. I’m not sure having a reading goal, is actually helping me read more. I might not set a goal for 2020 or like set it really low like at 10.

5. Everyday goals. Batch cooking, yoga and cleaning.

This year I was home a lot more so I had to cook all the time, or . I did do a lot of baking and clearing out though in fairness this year. Baking always calms me down. It’s focusing on a short term goal with a gain at the end. I don’t even really like desert, but Le’Boo loves sweet things. So he has gladly offered to eat many of my creations.

So what did you accomplish this year, despite all the barriers? Let me know in the comments, I want to hear some good news. Big or small, about what you managed to do against all odds.

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I Shaved My Head! – Also Goals & Intentions

Preamble

Hello Moonlings, you are all still here and I am so grateful. Thank you for your patience. This post will introduce my intentions, goals and thoughts for the coming year and decade.

You may find some of this strange, as my belief system is a mixture of paganism and Wicca (I’m still finding my way).

Please be kind we all have our own beliefs and my journey to spiritualism has been rocky. I might talk about it someday, but please know this is very real to me and I’m not joking around.

Intentions for 2020

I meditated on NYE using a piece of turquoise my parents got me from a trip to Montana USA. I spoke to myself in 10 years and she told me 3 important intentions for the coming decade:

  1. Be kind, to me as well.
  2. Remember I’m in control.
  3. Mind Le’Boo.

While these might seem odd to you they make total sense to me. You can never have enough kindness in the world, and we need to start with ourselves.

When I think about her saying “remember you’re in control,” I get chills. Part of my anxiety is the thought that I haven’t got control. Except I do have control, over my own actions.

Finally, when you find your soulmate you need to look after them.

Goals for 2020

Yes, I have so many goals for 2020 that they will all be in separate posts. I was so busy in October / November / December that I didn’t get to write any of them. So you’re getting them now!

Basically, I had actual time off over Christmas which I never do. So I was able to write more in two weeks than I have in months.

  1. Sustainability goals 2020! I still have them, don’t worry! I will do a review of the latter half of 2019 too.
  2. What I will count as wins for 2020? There will also be a list of my wins / what I was grateful for in 2019.
  3. I have a list of experience I want to try in 2020. These are a bit scary but worth it. Starting with number 1: SHAVING MY HEAD!
  4. List of books I want to read this year. I have 60 on my good reads but there are 12 (1 for each month) that I want to read.
  5. Everyday goals. Batch cooking, yoga and cleaning.

The Video

Rose McGowan is my inspiration for shaving my head. She felt she wasn’t being taken seriously as a woman because all people could see was her long beautiful hair.

Please watch it if you have time I’m really proud of this one.

I think a hero is any person really intent on making this a better place for all people.”
– Maya Angelou

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