Messages #17: Mental Health Issues

Depression & Anxiety

For those of you out there that clicked on this because you relate to having mental health issues, I’m so sorry. If you are just curious and maybe want to learn more, you are still welcome here. I will just warn you though, this won’t be a particularly fun post.

When I was originally diagnosed with anxiety & depression, my counsellor told me, “You will get better at managing it, but it will never really go away.” Instead of taking this as a cautionary tale, I jumped back into work. Then slowly, but surely, I slipped into my old bad habits.

What are these bad habits? In a nutshell, I overwork myself. I’m so afraid that any opportunity I get will never come around again, so instead of thinking it through I just say yes to everything. I don’t think about what I already have, I focus on what I still need to do. Which is my bucket list, the arbitrary list of things I want to do before I die.

No one is watching me, or evaluating me. If I don’t get through the list nothing bad will happen, there is no finish line or prise. Yet my ambitious doesn’t just rule me, it screams at me.

My sleep has been destroyed as a result. I lay in bed planning to perfection how I’m going to fit it all in, then have panic attacks in the dark. My body is sore and tired, and it needs a break.

Depression & Anxiety
Depression & Anxiety

Thinking Moon

I’m here today to tell you that Thinkingmoon.com will be slowing down for a while. I bit off more of the Moon than I could chew and sent my anxiety into overload.

My priority is and always has been my PhD, but lately, I’ve been overextending myself. Taking extra jobs to pay bills (proof reading), writing this blog, filming YouTube videos and spending waaaaay too much time on Twitter.

I’m not going away completely but I will only be posting once a week, on my original day, which is Friday.

When I feel better and more grounded I will post some extra days again. When the mood strikes or inspiration cannot wait, but this will not be permanent. Not until at least next July 2020.

In the meantime, please use me as your cautionary tale if you are struggling. Your health is more important than anything else. Go rest, then reevaluate. What is important to you?

Thank you all for reading,

Depression & Anxiety
Depression & Anxiety

I wish you all love & peace.

Jaycee. xxx

 

 

 

 

 

 

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  1. You’re an inspiration J.C and to talk about this stuff is incredibly brave. Sometimes our harshest critic is ourselves but there are a stack of people like me who are here to support your efforts. I’m just a tweet or message away if you ever need to talk about stuff, I cannot guarantee wisdom but I can guarantee a listening ear and the odd inappropriate joke…

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  2. Hi Jenni. Definitely slow down if you’re feeling overloaded, we all need breathing space, especially with mental health in the equation.

    Thanks for letting us know what’s been on your mind. Sometimes less is more. Better to have one or two good friendships than a zillion followers β€” I know you would agree!

    Focus on doing what you love, and what’s important (in terms of your dreams and ambitions) and take the pressure off yourself. There’s no hurry.

    Sending big hugs your way my friend! πŸ€—

    Peace and blessings xx

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    1. Thanks David, perhaps there is treatments. I hear CBT is excellent, but she didn’t mean it in a bad way. She meant that it can always resurface if I don’t look after myself. Which I am terrible at.

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  3. I’m sorry that you’re dealing with all of this. It’s important to know when you need a break, so I’m very happy that you’re taking some time for yourself. My brother suffers from depression and anxiety and he tends to overwork himself as well. I pray Jehovah God provides the strength you need to endure until his promises of a new world free of sickness are realized (Revelation 21:3,4). I hope you feel better soon.

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  4. I’ve just found your blog but have to say I can tell I’m going to love it already. It’s so important to focus on yourself as I’m sure your readers will understand. Never feel guilty for looking after yourself! xx

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  5. Sometimes our worse competition is ourselves. It’s hard when you constantly try to improve, do more things and do them better than before, ending up overworking. Good luck with your recovery, wish you all the best ❀

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  6. Try to take some time to focus on yourself, it’s better do a small number of tasks well rather than burning yourself out and only putting half your soul into a large number of tasks. Thinking of you. xx

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      1. Awesome!

        I’m doing good.. can’t complain! Just checking up on my Irish buddy because I haven’t heard from her in a while.

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