Welcome to Thinking Moon’s new category, Indie Sundays. I have pledged to read more indie books this year. I would like to discover and promote indie creators. They who are the next big thing, waiting in the wings of art to be propelled into the spotlight, and who am I to deny them their break? So please enjoy this new, albeit sporadic category. Filled with authors, movie-makers, poets, artists, and just the general misc of cool people the world would be grey without.
Speaking of grey without, our inaugural Indie Sunday extraordinary brings such colour to my life. N. F Mirza is the blogger Stoner On A Rollercoaster, and I have been following her for around two years now. They blog about their journey through depression and anxiety which I sadly empathise with. They create beautiful works of art, and I have been a fan of their aptly touching prose and gentle craft since I discovered them. When I heard that they had a book of poetry in the pipeline I immediately pre-ordered it.
Today I will be reviewing their debut poetry collection “Swinging Sanity,” which I devoured this weekend, over cups of coffee. Here is that review in all its finery, and can I say, dear Mirza, it gave me life.
Swinging Sanity – Review
As far as debuts go, this is up there with the greats for me. I am a poetry fanatic, and very sensitive about its conjuncture. This wonderfully cathartic, yet tragic piece of work filled the gaps of my broken heart, as she waxed about pain, love, life, and the pursuit of elusive joy.
The work is divided into five parts, each a protective canopy over its subject matter. Beginning with “Screaming Numbness” we are treated to exquisitely painful lyrics about suffering and mental illness.
“I am numb, I miss pain, Oh Pain!” – Just Like A Drop Of Water
“Then I hold the little spear, like a plume in the hands of a poet.” – Celebrating The Curse
“That horrid vortex finally spat me out I am stunned to be alive.” – Anything But Sane
We press on into the pages of “Love & Loss” as she tells her tales from the world of love. As humans, we are never free from pain. We are allowed moments of beauty as a reprieve between the senseless chaos of the universe.
“My ebony hair free from confines, as you like it, now don’t rush, watch how the end unfolds.” – A Poem I Can’t Name
“I saw a glimpse of excruciating agony.” – “A Dying Heart
“And I saw your last breath, Ascend to the sky, flying away, with a piece of me.” – When You Slept
“Where Earth would cradle my soul, to the rhythm of screaming water.” – This Is How I Want To Sleep
When the flushes of pain and joy are over we are treated to poems about the “Day and Night“. Her suffering mind remembers these times so vividly, and her fascination of the night sky appeals to fellow insomniac in me.
“The sun tirelessly shone all day, Still failed, To Ease this murky dark abyss, That’s made my mind it’s home.” – A Long Wordless Day
“I Remember those tiny fireflies, chasing each other into the darkness.” “When time wouldn’t fly, and the clocks were noiseless.” – Those Enchanting Nights
“Squalling for mercy.” – Nightmare Again.
Life is a dazzling series of confusion and clarity. Mirza’s section, “C’est La Vie” has some hard truths about the world we try to live in. When I read these lines they ignite in me my own fears, wonders, and imagination.
“My smouldering blistering tears…were ignored and denied, now sear my skin, in the dead dark cave of my anonymity.” – Cave Of My Anonymity
“They didn’t tell me, This demonic ritual, will slowly morph me, Into another fierce royal blue dragon.” – Fierce Royal Blue Dragon
“My nails look dirty too, Like I dug my way, Out of a grave.” “But I look great, prettier, happier than I ever looked, just like the rest of the crowd.” – Carnival
The final section “Random Thoughts,” is just that, and we see the author grappling with the suffering of now, hopefully, one day leading to the freedom of tomorrow. Out of struggle, so will the time of quiet victory, and self-assurance be born. Where those of us with kindness, walk alongside those of difficult persuasions. She closes the collection strong leaving us both elated with hope, and sturdy with solidarity. Please buy this poetry collection, it is too exquisite to remain unread.
“And one day, we will wake up, From this grim nightmare…Embellished with grime…But Hearts, Clear as glass.” – One Day
“Fueling my soul, I wait for my turn, I don’t waste tears.” – Waiting For My Turn
“Or to be, Like Ocean, Deep and blue, Holding a chunk of universe, In its womb.” – Blue
“And I see you…High on ignorance.” – A Million Dead Stars
“I pull out the last scroll, And scribble few enduring syllables…” – Last Poem Of October
Recently I received the new Audible original series by Scarlet Curtis called “To The Woman,” in which women read open letters to other women. One of the letters was heartbreaking, spoken to her mother who had recently passed away. I was driving home from work at the time and I sobbed openly in traffic while people stared. I’m newly moved out of my family home to live with my partner and this letter hit me where none other could have.
So this is an open letter to the woman who raised me, the mother that everyone should have, and my humble tribute to her today, on her 55th birthday. Mama, I love you more than these words could ever convey, and it’s you that made me this way. So if you are feeling down about your age today, just know no matter where I stray, I’m your little girl from May.
Most people find their first big love when they are older, and that’s their partner. How lucky was I that from the day I was born, I already had one of my big loves. As I grew you loved me, and I loved you too. How fortunate for us to have one another. I don’t have to worry about sounding conceited because I know how much you adore me, it’s a fracture of my adoration of and for you.
Although you didn’t have it easy, money was never ample, the times were tough and the climate was tougher. In a world where being a mother and a wife was not celebrated as it is now, you were expected to bear children and be happy about it. Not only did you do this with grace and love, never for one moment making us feel like we weren’t your priority, but you instilled in me my own worth.
The women I am today is a fragment of the woman you’ve been all your life. Your resilience, beauty, and elegance astound me. Your laughter and humour have filled me up when I was emptier then wine bottles after we’ve been at them.
I’m telling you this because when I heard that woman, crying for her mummy, I cried for mine. I wanted to squeeze you and tell you how wonderful you are, how beautiful you are, and how perfect you are in all your imperfections.
Here I am Mama, begging for you to recognise your worth because in my eyes you’re everything, you’re all I’ve ever wanted to be. Fierce little woman. Forgive me for any time I’ve hurt you, you broke your body for me, and I unaware tore you asunder. You let me go my own way, but I’ll always find my way back to you.
My first big love, my Mama. Thank you, and happy birthday.
“I love you.”
“I know.”* I hear you whisper.*
*This is from The Empire Strikes Back, in case any of you troglodytes didn’t know.
If you didn’t know already, I have this messages category where I talk to you all directly and give you updates to my life. If you are behind and want to catch up on them you can check them out here.
500 Follower Special
So I am fast approaching 500 followers, and for me it’s surreal. This time last year, I had my most viewed post at the time about snow, which had 56 views! I added my Buffy the Vampire Slayer category, and my follower count was around 30.
Now as I sneak towards 500 I once again reflect on how lucky I am, and how much I want to celebrate each one of you. The first 10 people to comment below on this will be made part of my 500th follower special.
What does that mean do you ask? Well hold on, I’m getting there friend. Basically, you comment and tell me something you want me to promote for you (your book, blog, art), and I will promote it in my 500th follower special.
A very emotional blog is coming on Friday, I mean it made me cry while I wrote it. So stay tuned for that.
My book is coming along nicely, and I hope to have it published by the end of 2019 so when my first draft is finished I might post a little portion of it for you guys, would you be into that?
Finally I will be adding a new day, and it will be called… *drum roll* Indie Sundays! I’ve been reading a lot of indie books as of late, communicating with a lot of indie creators, and just all round realised how important it is for indie creators to support each other.
This will be debuting this Sunday so I hope you’ll tune in and support the creator I’ll be showcasing. Until then, stay safe my darling Moonlings.
Also, don’t be disappointed there are no Buffy the Vampire Slayer characters in my tag below. I intend on doing a whole separate post for them! Yay! So dem rules are pretty simple and they are seen below.
Choose female characters from books, movies, TV, anime, Webtoons, etc.
Tag as many people as you want, but at least one person.
Name a heroine you like, but whom you feel is always overshadowed by the male characters in the story.
Quinn Airgon (Tika Sumpter) from Final Space. This show hit us with real feels, crazy antics, and the unforgettable baby green squish. Yet I rarely talk about the amazing character of Quinn. She is intelligent, tough, beautiful, and loyal. Throughout the series, she is surrounded by male energy which is equal parts ridiculous and reckless. Without her, I’m pretty sure the whole team aboard the Galaxy One would have perished.
As you can see, her facepalm game is real.
For that matter, name a heroine whom you feel is always overshadowed by the other female characters in the story.
Donna Moss(Janel Moloney) from The West Wing. This show had wonderfully powerful females, from press secretary C.J Cregg (darling Allison Janney), to First Lady Abigail Anne Bartlet (the incomparable Stockard Channing). Yet Donna Moss was always my favourite.
She was tough, funny, and infinitely capable. Her role to offer comic relief in a show known for its heavy topics, but boy was she a great character when the chips were down. Her relationship with Josh Lyman(Bradly Whitford) resulted in some of the best scenes in the show.
Although she was ‘only’ an assistant to Joss (and I say ‘only’ lightly), she ran a tight ship, anticipated her boss’s every move, and was a sharp as a tack. Her full title was Senior Assistant to the White House Deputy Chief of Staff, for many seasons. I won’t spoil the show for you (but if you haven’t watched it what are you doing with your life), she gets bigger and better jobs.
Name a character who had potential but was greatly underutilized in her story.
Kaywinnit Lee Frye (Jewel Staite) know affectionately as Kaylee is one of my favourite Firefly characters. (Yes I am still salty Firefly was cancelled). Throughout its short run Firefly grasped us by the heart and never quite let us go. Of course, Joss Whedon would have said there were no main characters, but for me, Kaylee always got the back seat.
Mal was the Captain (loveable rogue Nathan Fillion), and his first mate Zoe Washburne (Gina Torres) badass extraordinaire, usually took centre stage. Kaylee, while essential to the upkeep of the ship, rarely went on missions. That was left to the captain, his first mate, and their hired hand Jayne Cobb (Adam Baldwin, no not one of THE baldwins) who got to be centre stage.
Along with that, you had the transcendently beauty Inara Serra(Morena Baccarin), the ever more mysterious River Tam(Summar Glau), her brother Dr Simon Tam (Sean Maher) who with his medical training was thrown front and centre, finally the enigmatic Derriel Book (Ron Glass). This leaves Kaylee in the back seat.
Now I’m sure if we’d gotten more Firefly the character of Kaylee would have been expanded. She is fiercely funny, loyal to her space family, regardless of their less than above board activities, and a brilliant mechanic. We may not have gotten much time with her, but she knew how to get into our hearts regardless.
Name a female character who you either find better in her book than her movie, find better in her movie than her book, or whose portrayals you find equal.
Minerva McGonagall (portrayed by the legend Dame Maggie Smith in the movies) is my favourite Harry Potter character. There is very few who even come close to her, in both the novels and the movies. Her name is the same as the Roman Goddess of wisdom, and like Hermione Granger(Emma Watson), was almost placed in Ravenclaw. Ultimately we see her courage and integrity which to me, means she was correctly placed in Griffyndor.
She is an exceptionally brilliant wizard, even beside Albus Dumbledore she holds her ground. She is warm and loving, yet tough. Her obvious concern for not only students of her own house, but for all the students, endears her to me.
Even though Harry was not her child, she bought him his first broom in first year. A child who never had anything was given a broom which put him in touch with a talent that gave him pure joy.
She defends the unfair removal of Hagrid in book 5, in which she fights back, but is ultimately put in the hospital. We must remember she was an elderly woman at this stage. During the battle of Hogwarts McGonagall is fighting alongside the rest, loyal to magic, Dumbledore, and good to the very end. When the fighting is over she is made the Headmistress of Hogwarts.
Name a character who you want more backstory on.
Emily Gilmore(Kelly Bishop) from the Gilmore Girls. Although her life is alluded to in the show, really the focus is on Lorelai(Lauren Graham) and Rory Gilmore (Alexis Bledel). Of course, I love both Lorelai and Rory for different reasons, but I feel Emily’s hard done by. We are given her story from Lorelai’s perspective and of course, that’s going to be of an overbearing mother.
In some cases, we get a glimpse of maybe how difficult it may have been to be Emily. Richard Gilmore(Edward Herrmann) her husband, while he adored his wife, had a mother (Lorelai the first portrayed by Marion Ross), appears in several episodes and is quite cruel to Emily. I can only imagine what that was like when Emily was young and newlywed.
Also, Lorelai ran away from Emily and Richard’s controlling hands, but this hurt Emily more than she’s ever cared to admit. She adores her granddaughter Rory but loves her daughter no less. For me, the Gilmore Girls needed to include more about the eldest Gilmore Girl, Emily.
Name a character with traits you feel are sadly overlooked by everyone.
Paige Matthews (Rose McGowan) in Charmed. My love affair with Rose McGowan has only grown over the years, and her acting skills were what first lead me to her. After the death of my favourite Halliwell when I was a teenager, Paige was introduced to fill the huge shoes of Prudence Halliwell (Shannon Doherty).
Although Piper Halliwell (Holly-Maire Combs) was my favourite sister (I think she was everyone’s favourite, to be honest), I felt Paige was always overshadowed by her older sisters. Piper had reason to be front and centre as her powers were great but Paige’s powers were just as defensive. Somehow though Phoebe(Alyssa Milano) always got more attention, and I think that may have been directors choice somehow.
For me, even taking Piper’s powers of freezing, combustion, and her talents with potions, Paige’s powers were arguably the best out of all four sisters. As she was a mixture of White-Lighter and witch, her powers of telekinesis were therefore enhanced, she could orb anywhere at will and eventually learns how to heal.
She was also very level-headed for her age, kind when it came to those in need, hence her career in social care when we meet her first, and finally her fire. She did not grow up with the Halliwell sisters, and her adoptive parents died quite young. She didn’t have the attachment issues the other sisters had, and this worked to her advantage sometimes when it came around to making hard decisions.
It was toyed with a bit, showing her first as an active social care worker and then White-Lighter. Ultimately this was abandoned for one reason or another, but when watching Charmed, I found myself enjoying Paige’s stories more than those of Phoebe.
Name a morally grey character. (Villain or anti-hero!)
Louise Belcher(Kristen Schaal) is the youngest member of the Belcher family and my personal favourite. Each and every member of the Belcher’s is funny in their own way, but Louise has a special place in my heart. For someone so young and adorable, she is quite evil.
For me, I love a girl with a bit of spunk and Louise Belcher has malice in her that makes me chuckle every time. Her parents are wonderfully accepting of their children and their various quirks and let them all be themselves. Louise is highly intelligent but uses her smarts for evil instead of good. You go Lou, we love you.
A character you’re stunned isn’t more famous.
Ouiser Boudreaux (Shirley McClane) from Steel Magnolias. I know she probably is famous to some degree, but she doesn’t appear in enough gifs in my opinion. Steel Magnolias is one of my favourite movies, and I’ve cried more times then I can count at that movie.
Overall the female power in that movie is incredible with the cast consisting of Sally Field, Dolly Parton, Julia Roberts, Shirley MacLaine, Olympia Dukakis, and Daryl Hannah. Feel good isn’t even the word to describe the character of Ouiser’s throughout the movie. She does and says things we all wish we had the balls to.
She is the grumpy old lady I aspire to be and spends her time not giving a shit about who she insults or what she says. Although abrasive, she is the best friend of Clariee Blecher(Olympia Dukakis) who appears ladylike and demure but is just as twistedly funny and Ouiser.
They also have one of the best friendships immortalised in the history of the big screen, and one of the best lines. “You know I love you more than my luggage.” I demand more Ouiser gifs and appreciation!
A character from a piece of fiction you’re amazed isn’t more famous.
Ellen Riley(Sigourney Weaver) from the Alien franchise. I can hear you yelling at the screen, “but she is famous, she’s in four of the movies, blah blah blah.” Ok, can you whist for a second and let me explain myself? Please and thank you.
When you watch Alien for the first time, you don’t know who the protagonist is going to be. That’s the beauty of that movie. Each character is carefully drawn with their own limits and flaws.
Ellen is no different and in fact, she’s not a kind or soft female character. She’s tough, pedantic, and not particularly well liked. Perhaps this is the reason she survives, but for me as a young girl, it was wonderful to see someone who wasn’t the typical female in a horror movie.
She never has makeup on, she’s filthy by the end of the movie, and covered in a film of greasy sweat. She wore baggy ship clothes, wore her hair naturally, and didn’t spend 90% of the movie smiling to show off her beautiful teeth.
Don’t get me wrong, Sigourney Weaver is a beautiful woman, but she wasn’t the typical Hollywood beauty, and that’s what made her so amazing. She was one of the first proper female badasses, written like a real person, portrayed like a real person, and gave zero fucks about what she looked like while fighting for her life. Along with being one of my most favourite movies of all time, Alien gave me one of my first strong females. She paved the way for many more, and I’m arguing that she isn’t given enough credit as far as heroes on movie franchises go.
Captain Marvel might have been the first Superhero movie about a woman, but Ellen Ripley was out here being a badass since 1979. I think I feel a tattoo coming on ladies…
A mixture of everyone because anyone can be a feminist and support women! Don’t feel obligated, but I would just love to see all your takes on it!
Nicole from Mullen Crafts – Another strong female who surprises me time after time.
Lee from Lee’s Hall of Information – I feel this would be right up your alley, maybe even some strong female characters of your own?
My dear Moonlings, somehow I made it to 100 posts. For those of you who have been with me from the beginning, thank you so much. I know recently indie royalty Lee Hall has published his 200th post and to him I say chapeau!
If you are new here, let me extend a warm welcome. We love to talk about the world, books, philosophy, and my hero Buffy Summers. Today I offer you a video I’ve been working on for several weeks now. It’s a look book centred around 4 Jeffree Star Cosmetic’s liquid lipsticks.
I explain all in the video below, but if that’s not your thing just have fun looking at the pretty pictures, we’re all friends here.
So I love clothes, and makeup, I really do. It’s a form of artistic expression, and I can see how happy it makes people. In recent years I’ve become ever more environmentally aware, so I’m trying to buy things that are good for the environment, safe for animals, and ethically produced. Fast fashion is very dangerous not just to the environment, but for those forced to make the clothing in horrific conditions.
Therefore I endeavoured to create a look book with 4 Jeffree Star Liquid lipsticks. These are a wonderful product because they are vegan and not tested on animals. I’ve coupled them with clothing I’ve either had for a long time, thrifted, or got from ethical sources. I tried to let you know where possible I got certain items, but like I said most of them are from second-hand shops and even hand-me-downs from my family. (I love my dad’s old flannels and my brother’s old jeans).
This is the video, I spent many an hour on it for you guys and I really hope you like it. Let me know in the comments below if you’re interested, I’m thinking of making more of these and including Le’Boo, so make sure you’re subscribed so you get to see those videos in the future.
Jennifer L. Place is a native of the Hudson Valley in New York. Her most recent book ‘Building 51‘, is based on a real abandoned asylum, in which the titled ‘Building 51″ is part of.
Having grown up in an area with this forgotten hospital Jennifer confesses she’s had an interest in it since childhood. It loomed in the background, and although she’d written 3 other successful books, the time came to invest in her curiosity.
She organised a tour of the sprawling campus and this shows throughout the book. Her knowledge of the grounds enhances the atmosphere of the novel. This is further boosted by accurate historical information displayed throughout. Evidence from the hospitals 140 years of life and beyond provides us with the chilling truth. Nothing that despicable ever dies.
If you are interested in learning more about the author herself, please feel free to head over to her website which can be found here.
As a lover of the horror genre, my initial approach to any novel within its scope is tentative. Unlike softer genres such as comedy or romance, when horror is bad, it’s awful. Therefore I was delighted to find that this story, while formulated in a classic trope, has new ideas and scares to offer. The opening shot sets group dynamics of 7 friends. They’re young, carefree, and mischievous, perfectly positioned for pain. Place jumps right into the guts of the matter as they plan to explore the abandoned hospital.
While you may make some predictions, you will not fully guess the ending. We are treated to complex character arcs, without an over indulgencing in flashbacks. You can tell the author’s imagination is well-developed and her days pondering over the dilapidated hospital is apparent.
*Ahead there be spoilers!!!*
The ‘love’ triangle’ which plagues 3 of the characters adds to the story agreeably. I have often found this tool to be cumbersome, however, without it, the characters may have behaved differently. Place directs her characters and ultimately people break off into groups. Which you should never do in a horror story, don’t they know they’re in a book?! Although Place dips into classic horror analogies there are times the characters poke fun at this and do not make the decisions we would expect them to make.
Another theme I really loved was the classic blood ‘wakes’ the beast. It shows Place really thought about ‘the why’ when she wrote this book. The 7(also a classic horror number) friends are not just attacked because they dare to wander the grounds of the hospital. It’s is an incident where blood is spilled which causes the hospital to rouse from its slumber, and welcome its new guests.
The grandmother’s introduction was seamless and the throwback to her at the end was inspired. I think this is a sensational read and you won’t want to put the book down. So make sure you’re sitting comfortably with your beverage of choice before you embark.
Yes, you can find Jennifer L. Place on all the usual platforms, and I’ve linked much of her media below. She has other books if horror is not your fancy, as you can see, so go buy one of those. You won’t be disappointed, and once again, thanks for reading Moonlings!
Yes, you heard that right, I’m interviewing fellow blogger; the genre master, Pussy Tantrum. My reasoning was originally I was just interested in their work. There is a certain enigma to their respective sites. However, the more I viewed their endeavours the more curious I became.
In a world where outcry/cancel culture is rampant, I worry for artists and writers like Pussy Tantrum. They say themselves that they are not making millions off their work, but they are working none the less. However, they may not be everyone’s proverbial cup of tea and challenge the status quo. So in accordance with this, they often are punished for it.
They were banned from Twitter 5 times according to them, and while they probably more or less broke Twitter’s terms of service, it’s their banishment from Amazon which disturbs me. Although Amazon took down a book, which Pussy Tantrum themselves admits may have been problematic, they also banned them, (and the rest of their 15 other books), for life.
The interview follows, and I would like to whole-heartedly thank Pussy Tantrum for taking the time to answer the questions. Let me know what you think about their answers in the comments down below.
Q1 You go by many names, now I won’t ask you for your real name, but who do you identify as for the purpose of this interview?
I identify as Pussy Tantrum currently. For a long time I went as Kitty Glitter but I no longer like that name, but there is still a slot machine named Kitty Glitter. I actually won $800 playing on it one time.
Q2 How are you feeling right now about social media? I read somewhere that you were banned from Twitter.
I think social media is pretty lame for the most part. I also think the internet is lame mostly, but Instagram is okay, it’s the least bad of the social medias. I was banned from Twitter for being off the hook, they thought that I was too hardcore. It’s probably the fifth time I was banned from Twitter, at this point I have no interest in making another account on there. It seems to be a dying platform and everyone on there is always mad. I feel like the MySpace era was the best time for social media. Everyone on MySpace was fun and happy, it was the time of Stevie Ryan, a time when Stevie Ryan ruled the world and a young Katy Perry was just getting started. Katy Perry was a MySpace star before she ever became a real world star. I miss MySpace and I miss the LG Chocolate telephone, I still feel that it was the best phone ever!
Q3 I’ve listened to your podcast, ‘Pussy Centipede’ and I must admit I’m intrigued. However you received a scathing review on Stitcher 2 months ago. How does reviews like this make you feel about your work?
The Pussy Centipede is the most important podcast ever, but to experience it properly you must listen to the episodes in the proper sequence starting with episode one. I don’t really care about bad reviews. Everything I like has one star reviews. I feel that reviews are just opinions and that they are bound to vary, but if a restaurant has too many bad reviews I won’t eat there. Nothing is worse than gross food, a bad movie won’t make you sick. Make sure to tell everyone you know about The Pussy Centipede though, it’s so important to society, I think it’s going to change the world!
Q4 Tell me about Jill Banner, you cite her as your muse, what is it about her?
I love Jill Banner. She mostly only starred in the film Spider Baby and some random episodes of Dragnet. She also dated Marlon Brando, people say she was the love of Marlon Brando’s life. She died in a car accident in her early 30’s so who knows what could have happened with her career? Quentin Tarantino is a huge fan of Spider Baby, I’m sure if she had lived longer he would have cast her in all his films, I’m sure Rob Zombie would have as well. That’s just the kind of superstar she was. Her performance in Spider Baby is probably the most brilliant film performance ever, and she was only 17 when she did it, and she wasn’t a trained actress. So she was totally an outsider artist, her performance in that film was outsider art! She was also really hot and pretty. I would say that she was hotter than Katy Perry, Mary Elizabeth Winstead, and Hailee Steinfeld. I think that’s saying alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You must watch Spider Baby now!
In addition I would say that Jill Banner is a perfect symbol of outsider art or things that are good. I think Spider Baby is the best movie ever and that nothing has ever been made that is better than Spider Baby. But it’s a movie that’s like on the outside. Being an insider is lame though, and boring. In a recent interview John Waters said that being an outsider is bad now because Trump was an outsider and John Waters hates him or something. But I think he is just old and political now and he is boring now. That’s why it’s good when people die young, if you die young you will stay cool forever like James Dean. But it’s sad that Jill Banner died young.
Q5 You self-identify as a ghetto outsider. What circumstances have directed your life in this way?
I probably identify as ghetto because I grew up in Queens in the 80’s. That was before NYC was totally gentrified and safe. I got into fights all the time and got robbed a lot. The first three bikes I ever had were robbed off me so that hardened me and made me ghetto. People used to throw eggs all over the place on Halloween back then, and it was dangerous. I also worked as a janitor for a long time at The New York Times. I cleaned the toilets and the reporters at the NY Times would poop really bad all over the place, I saw so much bad poop, and that made me be on the outside I guess. I was on the outside looking in while everyone was locked inside the stall of the bathroom pooping and waiting for me to clean their poop.
Also I’m not rich or famous and don’t really get paid to make the art I do. If Andy Warhol was still alive he would have discovered me and made me a superstar. I would have been chilling at The Factory with Hayden Christensen and Sienna Miller. I would have been an insider, but without Andy Warhol I shall remain on the outside. I am not motivated to be creative, it’s just a compulsion. It’s impossible for me not to make crappy stuff or record crappy podcasts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Q6 What is your primary goal in life, and are you living towards that goal?
I once had a goal of a writing a book that would be totally famous and totally notorious. But I already achieved that goal in 2012 by writing Wesley Crusher: Teenage Fuck Machine. If you Google it you will see that it was totally famous and totally notorious. So after that I no longer had any goals. I have seen Katy Perry live on three separate occasions. I have also seen Poppy three times. I guess those are goals. Maybe seeing them both ten times each will be goals. I am currently planning to make a show called Pussy High. I am going to shoot it all on MiniDV tapes and instead of actors I am using a combination of Barbie dolls and homemade dolls. That is probably a goal too. I’m generally living towards that goal. I would also like to lose weight. I am trying to do a keto diet but I keep cheating on it and getting fatter. My goal weight is 190 and I am currently 220, so it’s a realistic goal. Based on my height 220 is overweight but not obese. If I ever crossed the line into obesity I would be depressed, but no offence to obese people.
Q7 You were also banned from Amazon, firstly do you feel this is an impingement on free speech?
I don’t know if getting banned from Amazon was a free speech violation. I mean I generally think free speech applies to the government, like if the government had arrested me for my books that would most def had impinged on my free speech rights. But these days with all the big tech monopolies it’s hard to even understand what free speech is anymore. At some point we will have to come to a new understanding of what constitutes free speech. I wish somebody would create a free speech publishing platform though, what happened to me is most def censorship and it wasn’t fair!!!! Amazon is crap! I’m so glad that Jeff Bezos is caught up in a dick pic scandal!
Q8 Also could you speculate as to why you were banned from Amazon?
I know why I was banned from Amazon. I had published a satirical book called Soy Wars: The Soylence Of The Lambs. The book was about a writer named Chuck Wendig and how he goes on an adventure to save his wife’s boyfriend from a gang of Irish kittens. The book was meant to be a mockery of Star Wars author Chuck Wendig, a person I find to be a pompous blowhard and an angry hatemonger. Chuck Wendig was angry that so many people liked my book and he reported me to Amazon saying that my book was threatening to his family and defamation or something. He also got me banned from every other publishing platform except for one. I won’t name that platform here though because he might see the interview and then get me banned from that place. It wasn’t just Wendig though, it was also this other author named Summer Heacock, she is friends with Chuck Wendig and used Twitter to start a mass flagging campaign against me. So Summer Heacock and all her followers mass reported my books. What I don’t understand is why all my books were banned instead of just the one book about Wendig? It makes no sense. I had like 15 books and all 15 were banned.
Q9 I would like people to know more about ‘Wondercat’. Is this a musical project by yourself or friends of you?
Wondercat is a band I had with my fiancee. We did it for about two years, it was music we wrote and recorded together, we tried to record everyone only using four track cassette recorders. I prefer to do everything analog. I mostly played bass guitar on the songs and wrote the lyrics, and my fiancee wrote the music and played guitar. But sometimes I wrote the music and she wrote the lyrics, and sometimes I played guitar. I think the music was inspired by The Vaselines, and sometimes PIL and The Sex Pistols. I really love Johnny Rotten. I don’t think we’ll ever record as Wondercat again but we will probably make music for my Pussy High show like a theme song and score. I still have fourteen copies of the first Wondercat album on cassette and a bunch of stickers if anyone wants to buy some.
Q10 You say on your website that you’ve retired from writing books. However, would you ever consider writing again? If not, is there any other projects we can look forward to?
I am retired from writing under the name Kitty Glitter. All the getting banned just left a bad taste in my mouth. I also just feel bored with writing fiction right now. But I still write plotlines for The Pussy Centipede podcast, and I am writing scripts for my Pussy High show. I also like to do drawing and photography and film. So definitely keep an eye out for my Pussy High show which I will be posting up on Bit.Tube. And also keep an eye out for upcoming episodes of The Pussy Centipede podcast!!!!! You can also see my drawings on Instagram!!!!
Q11 Finally from my interactions with you and consuming your content, I consider you to be an absurdist. How would you categorise yourself and your art, and is my assumption somewhat accurate?
I think absurdist is accurate to some degree. I am definitely influenced by the Dada movement which I think is related to absurdity. I really like the Gregg Araki films The Doom Generation and Nowhere. I feel like those films are their own genre and I’d like my work to be in that genre. I feel that the only proper reaction to the chaos of the universe is absurdity, I think that’s what the Dada people thought but I’m not sure.