Message # 5 – Stream of Consciousness

Hello friends, I just have a stream of consciousness for you today because I don’t have time for my usual Friday post.

If you don’t know I’m doing a PhD and I have an annual review today. Although I’m nervous, I’m very excited to discuss my research. Here is a sneak peek at my presentation:

This week I reached 200 followers on this platform and I am forever grateful for each one of you. This community is supportive, creative, and completely kind. My whole life is consumed by writing and although I’m 28 years young, I only realised that 2 years ago. This platform is the place for me.

Stream of Consciousness
Stream of Consciousness

Whether I post a fictional story, a rant about traffic or simply a healing post on my mental illness, you are all wonderfully complementary.

It is people like you that make this world a healthy place for the imagination. Your simple acts of kindness whether that be a comment on my blog or something in your day to day life, is revolutionary.

If I ever make it to 500 followers I’ll do another collaborative post like my 100th follower post. Today though, all I have for you is gratitude and humility. We lift each other up, and no success is won alone.

Thank you,



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Stream of Consciousness
Stream of Consciousness

Sometimes I talk to you all directly.

Top 10 ‘Eagles’ Songs That Weren’t Singles

RIP Glenn Frey (1948 – 2016)

We are forever grateful for your contribution to music

If you know me personally or if you’ve read my blog recently you’ll know I’m a hugely into music. My parent’s influenced me a lot in my formative years, then as a teenager, my taste diverged.

One band that stuck with me from my parents, however, was the Eagles. Now I could rank the top 10 singles and we could argue for years over that. Or what I thought would be more fun is to discuss the top 10 Eagles songs (in my humble opinion) that weren’t singles.

Although I had some hard choices in ranking, some were obvious winners.

10. ‘The Disco Strangler’ – The Long Run (1979)

Writer(s): Don Henley. Glenn Frey. Don Felder.

Although this was released in 1979 I call ‘The Long Run’ their 80’s album. You cannot escape the groove of this track. Henley is my favourite vocalist in Eagles (actually he’s my favourite Eagle).

This song is an interesting take on the late 70’s dance club scene. Girls without a care possibly falling into the arms of the ‘Disco Strangler’. It might be a cautionary tale, or it might just be the music itself. Only the writers know.

9. ‘No More Walks In The Wood’ – The Long Road Out Of Eden (2007)

Writer(s): Don Henley. Steuart Smith. John Hollander.

Did you forget about their most recent album? Don’t worry it’s often overlooked but there are some really beautiful tracks on there. Especially as they branched out with their collaborations.

You need to appreciate the vocal capabilities of the Eagles. You have Henley, Frey, Walsh and Schmit. Absolute gold.

This song is an ode to nature while chastising humankind. It’s telling that the cover of the album is a desert. Layers upon layers of meaning are reflected in strata of harmonies that delight.

8. ‘Journey Of The Sorcerer’ – One of These Nights (1975)

Writer(s): Bernie Leadon.

Do you recognise this tune despite not being an Eagles lover? Well, you’re right. This beautiful instrumental written and performed by Bernie Leadon was the theme music for ‘The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy’ BBC radio show in 1978 & 1979.

The driving melody coupled with Leadon’s banjo is inescapably ethereal. As the only song on this list without vocals, I believe it holds it own. Leadon’s role feels underplayed in the band overall.

It’s very much of the time. The Eagles deliver this song as cohesively as any harmonised track of theirs. I miss the banjo. It needs its triumphant return.

7. ‘Take The Devil’ – Eagles (1972)

Writer(s): Randy Meisner.

Written by Meisner, sung by Meisner. This song was the reason Glyn John agreed to produce the album, as previously he thought the band was too rock for him. So in truth, Meisner saved this album.

I also had to give you a Meisner song. Although his favourite in our family is ‘Take it to the Limit,‘ if you give ‘Take the Devil’ a chance you’re sure to be surprised.

6. ‘On The Border’ – On The Border  (1974)

Writer(s): Don Henley. Bernie Leadon. Glenn Frey.

Beautiful mixture of Henley vocals and harmonies from the rest.

Of course, the boys of the Eagles were always trying to stick it to the man, and they were not a fan of the nanny state. Pretty sure we have a red band if they cared about affiliations.

Plenty of metaphors mixed with outright statements. The slick guitar licks in the middle of the song remind me of the men in suits who want your hard earned cash.

“I thought this was a private line…I’m trying to change this water to wine.”

Their grandiosity never ends.

5. ‘Pretty Maids All In A Row’ – Hotel California (1976)

Writer(s): Joe Walsh. Joe Vitale.

Look every song on Hotel California is a masterpiece, but unlike Gods creatures, not all songs were created equal. This song, in particular, has stuck with me and often pops into my head. A welcomed earworm for sure.

‘Why do we give up our hearts to the past? And why must we grow up so fast?’ 

We also have to give Joe Walsh his due, for this one. The album is bursting with Henley / Frey goodness yet Walsh manages to match their bravado with this storybook and soaring vocals.

4. ‘Wasted Time’ – Hotel California (1976)

Writer(s): Don Henley. Glenn Frey.

Pure Henley and Frey magic. In my opinion, this song is the only challenger to Desperado in soulful honesty.  Hotel California was one of my favourite albums growing up. How the songs made me feel evolved over time.

This song hurt me for quite a while after a bad breakup. All I could do was thank Henley’s voice for soothing me through it. There aren’t enough Eagles songs that featured piano as effectively as this one.

“You didn’t love the boy too much, no no you just, loved the boy too well.”

Ouch! Take a little time to enjoy what the base is doing if the lyrics are too painful.

3. ‘Midnight Flyer’ – On The Border (1974)

Writer(s): Paul Craft.

(This song is a cover but hear me out)

Not written by any of the Eagles but WOOOOOOEEEEEEEEEE what a fucking tune! Pardon my French.

It’s quick, it’s country, and it’s infectious. It was a perfect addition to the surly atmosphere of ‘On The Border’. Leadon’s banjo coupled with train whistle vocals is enough to turn anyone into a country fan.

Drive that beat home boys!

2. ‘Doolin’ Dalton’ – Desperado (1973)

Writer(s): Don Henley. Glenn Frey. J.D Souther. Jackson Browne.

Jackson Browne’s involvement with the Eagles is underrated. Fight me on this.

The boys wrote the album ‘Desperado’ while jamming with Browne. He had recently read a book about gunfighters. This is how ‘Doolin-Dalton‘ was born.

Although it appears as though they are glorifying anti-heroes, the underlying message was the harshness of life in the West.

‘Red-eyed whiskey for the pain.’

I’m with you there boys.

1. Those Shoes – The Long Run (1979) 

Writer(s): Don Henley. Glenn Frey. Don Felder.

This was an easy number 1 for me. Pretty much any song with Henley’s vocals are a winner.

Henley’s vocals coupled with dirty strings. This song is just plain filthy and I love it. You can actually smell the clubs in this song. Everyone imagines their own version of ‘those shoes’ with the ankle straps.

‘But you’re so smooth and the world’s so rough.’

‘They give you tablets of love.’

When you’re young and desperate for attention, ‘those shoes’ will get it for you.

The ringing guitars and the frightful drums are oppressive. The song ends so suddenly you might want to hold onto something lest you fall.

Hope you enjoyed this list. Tell me about your favourite Eagles song in the comments below

Also here is a playlist I made on Spotify:

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My Anxiety & My Magic – Part VI

– Red: Depressed / Anxious / Angry / Negative

 – Orange: Sad / Unsettled / Low

 – Yellow: Empty / Tired / Fed-up

 – Green: Middling / Feeling Nothing / Don’t Care

 – Blue: Feeling Strange / Unsure

 – Indigo: Happy / Relaxed / Smiling

 – Purple: Very Calm / Content / Happy / Positive


I went to Iceland in 2016 with my parents and Le Boo. While driving around we listened to Björk a lot. Her voice and music style makes more sense to me now I’ve seen the landscape of her homeland. It’s incredibly beautiful, but also quite alien. I can only imagine living there before the industrial revolution.

It’s desolate and lonely fields of lava coupled with intense coastlines feels genuinely out of this world. It was the trip of a lifetime. We went to the Blue Lagoon, and I’d paid my ticket in advance to swim in it.


That never happened. While my parents and Le Boo were swimming in the Blue Lagoon’s naturally heated water, I was in the bathroom of the facility. Crying as quietly as I could in a stall, while my body panicked so fiercely it felt as though I was going to die. For days afterward I was exhausted, and couldn’t enjoy the holiday as well.

When I got back to Ireland, instead of being able to sleep the night before I returned to work, I tossed and turned. My stomach was sick, and I vomited at one stage. When Le Boo was getting ready for work in the morning he was surprised when I didn’t get up. I informed him as soon as my GP’s office was open at 8am I was going to make an appointment with her.

He was extremely supportive by the way and still is to this day.

I sobbed in my primary care physician consulting room, which was a new experience for me. I told her how I was feeling, and how there had to be something wrong. She suggested I quit one of my jobs (which I never had to do before, I have like 3 jobs now) and try some anti-depressants.

I then found a counselor recommended by a friend. She kindly informed me I had a mental breakdown after many years of suppressing pain and illness.

It’s been two years since that breakdown.

Let me make something very clear. At the time of the breakdown I was with Le Boo, and that is an extremely loving relationship. My parents, brother, and friends are all phenomenal people. I had managed to get a scholarship for my Ph.D. which was what I had always wanted, and my career was finally moving in the direction I wanted.

And yet…

You think you get what you want and your mental illness will just dissolve. There isn’t a chance of that. What might happen is finally recognise if your internal monologue is healthy. If your relationship with yourself is kind. The road to discovery this may be tough but I found journaling helped. I included a colour chart I use at the beginning of this post. It has been indispensable to understanding and processing my emotions.

What I discuss on this blog is not revolutionary. It’s not ground-breaking in itself. Except for those suffering from cycles of anxiety followed by depression. When someone with other chronic illnesses discusses their symptoms, tt makes you realise you are not alone in your disease. Although it wants you to feel as though you are.

The community of people I’ve surrounded myself with on this site has been eye-opening. Those suffering from an array of mental illnesses from bi-polar to PTSD to social anxiety, and many more. They describe moments of pain, and they share their load. Hopefully making it a bit lighter.

Share your pain, listen to your emotions, and finally be kind to yourself first. Otherwise, you won’t have anything left to give to others.

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I also make YouTube videos on occasion to accompany my posts. You can check it out below:

I am Invisible

I am invisible, they never learned to see me.

My form has been hidden beneath shallow waters,

Inside the grey and the blood, where the pain hides.

You child, have much to learn. Don’t tell me how I feel.

You’ve barely begun yourself, and you have not lived my war.

Fuck off.


When I went and laid my life story out before her,

She did what I paid her to do,

She told me my life story, and I wept when it was true.


I nearly wrote you a letter about all the good things you were.

Then I remembered you took comfort from someone else,

Who doesn’t know the full truth, of your actions.

You dug into my wounds and twisted them.

You, quick to anger and bitterness,

Once again never thought about my misery.


My regards to your own ego.

It serves you well.

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Marie Keane – Musician

Maire Keane is an Irish musician self-styled as a mix of folk, blues, and rock. Her debut album ‘Russian Doll’ is due to drop this November. In anticipation, my brain formulated some questions about the album and the creative process.

  1. Who is your dream collaboration?


Radiohead/ David Byrne/ Kate Bush / Joan as Policewoman/ Portishead/Breadyman ….(ie. in an actual dream)


  1. Who was your earliest musical inspiration as a child?


Zig & Zag, Micheal Jackson, Whitney Houston & Natalie Cole won those titles


  1. What has the music taught you during the creative process of ‘Russian Doll’?


The creative process seems to span from the conception of a song which may or may not end up as part of the final cut. You’re recounting a segment of your personal journey at that time. Writing the songs is the lovely, secluded part of the creative process. It’s like a dirty secret that you have to vanquish and deliver to a potentially innocuous or facetious listener. However, performing & recording the album is like the ultimate mindfulness exercise where you have to balance alertness with ease and trust in the process and the people around you, but ultimately within yourself, which is the difficult part. You have to let go of any preconceptions of who you are and investigate like an eager child. I also learned that although I wrote most of these songs between 2004 and 2013, it was a complete rebirth in revisiting them, realigning their arrangements and protecting their integrity as an older version of the person who wrote them. The joy was that not only did I not hate them, allowing others to influence their evolution is what has made them grow even more. I know I picked the right people so at least my instincts are still sharp even if my sanity is not.


  1. Were you influenced by any musicians/albums while writing Russian Doll’?


Lauryn Hill (miseducation album), Joan as police woman (real life), Schubert, sessions I was a part of growing up and with my mates hammering out songs til eight in the morning on trips in the west of Ireland, Roberta Flack, Marlena Shaw, Radiohead (the bends, OK computer), Jeff Buckley, Gorillaz, Bonnie Raitt, Queen, Muse, Beethoven.


  1. What are your main motivations to write music?


Anything that moves me sideways or that gives me a bubble in my chest that makes me get up in the morning, anything I notice that captures my gra or that gets into my cra.


  1. How would you describe the music scene in your city and how important was it in terms of writing ‘Russian Doll’?


It’s currently at boiling point in a tremendously important way, in fact at least three of the songs were written specifically about Dublin, but most themes that permeate the songs on the album are somehow related to growing up in Ireland.


  1. Is there a particular song or musical passage that never fails to move you emotionally?


Roberta Flacks’ live version of Simon & Garfunkels ‘the sound of silence’.


  1. What’s the best compliment you’ve received regarding your music?


When I was talking with my friend recently about the album, although we’ve only reconnected in the last two years following a five year gap, she asked me whether one of the songs she remembers from 12 years ago was going to be on the album and it was so lovely to tell her it was and that she remembered the song, which is one of my favourites on the album.


  1. Will we get any music videos from ’Russian Doll’’?


We will indeed. I’m heading into Camden recording studios on Nov 10th to do about four tracks so hopefully they’ll all be edited and ready before Christmas.


10 What song of yours is your favourite and why?


It’s the final track on the album and it’s a piano instrumental, so it’s probably why I like it so much, I don’t have to sing it and it was a tune that I was able to write in about twenty minute. When they come that quickly and easily to you that it feels like it’s a natural thing to play. Although I also love the third track ‘Cranes’ so I suppose it depends on the day I perform them.


11. What would you like to say to your fans?


Life is fun, keep on moving, go for the love.

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Russian Doll
Russian Doll

She is also having a launch party on the 27th of January 2019, in the Sugar Club, Lesson Street, Dublin city.

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